it’s january 30. yes, i know, i know. i’m a month late to the game. i wanted to take it slow – you really did this time, talia – and really think about what i want in my life, what i want to achieve in 2019 and what i can improve on from 2018.
i honestly can’t believe it’s 2019 and that i’ll be hitting mid-twenties soon … not that i’m afraid or dreading getting older (okay maybe a little). i’m mostly excited about how i can be a better person, how can i earn money, how i can allow my parents and myself to live comfortably, how i can grow deeper in his grace, grow wiser all that stuff.
but first, let’s take a recap to my 2018 resolutions & see whether i’ve made any difference hahaha –> 0931h; the 58th day of 2018. (hey, i actually did pretty good this year at the 30th day of 2019 XD)
I even wrote it down on a brown paper which got rather vintage looking as a reminder to myself… it was a good run, 2018. i felt like i was doing my best at keeping to my goals. in 2018, i chose who i wanted to stay in my life – reconnecting with the old, maintaining the currents, making new ones and removing the toxic from my life #keepsakefriends . i’m so happy and satisfied with the people i surround myself with now.
my second bullet point on food wastage… hm. i remember i did try to finish my food / order less but i think i pretty much gave up towards the end of the year? not that i threw a lot of it away but i made sure i had someone who could eat it for me. that’s my dad and it’s good enough. haha
i invested in myself alot in 2018. i refrained from shopping for makeup, invested in skincare and clothes that i know will carry me through the seasons. i did well here, considering how much i love fashion and its variety… this year, i’m taking it higher.
2017 was my rabak as heck year. it was crazy – drinking, smoking, partying with a component of fitness. 2018 was the year i decided to detoxify. I was the go-to drinking buddy and it was tough to decline especially when you’re already at the table and when your friends are heartbroken and turn to you for a drinking session but you know you gotta say no- for both your sakes. eventually, they stopped asking as much; it gets a little less suffocating and i started prioritizing my health and fitness again in the latter half of 2018 when i started my internship with cool-ass fashionistas and health gurus of bosses. i was going for zumba and yoga on thursday and fridays respectively with my mum. the other days, i was going to the gym. i rested on weekends. i had more sleep in 2018 because i made sleep a priority. i made my health a priority and i believe i will continue to make it so in 2019. call me a granny or whatever; it’s what is good for me. i mean, it’s not like i can’t stay up till 7 in the morning… i can, i just take longer to recover hahahaah
anddd lastly, getting a job. i didn’t do it in 2018 because i went for an internship instead and a part time after. i didn’t want to rush into anything. it’s my life, it’s my timeline, it’s my pace. so yeah. i enjoyed my internship, loved everything about it, learnt so much about myself through it… andddd of course there were times i felt like i was not worthy enough to be picked cos i was sending alot alot of applications but none of them wanted me/already filled up.. and then came a call from an ex-schoolmate of mine, K. he basically told me i applied for the wrong job but he has other positions available for me and so, i told him to go ahead with that position. everything happened pretty fast from the third week of dec to mid january. i accepted the offer after a very long and stressful weekend and two days since the offer was made.. i prayed hard, asked for signs – is it the right one? should i go forth? – and i guess it was blatantly clear when i sought the advice of someone from an industry i want to be in but he told me to go for the offer instead and of cos that interview which got back to me with a response within the night. so, thank YOU. (: so yep. 2019, i have a job!
2018 was such a wonderful year of growth. i’m so glad i became my own and started caring less of what others thought of me. compared less, believed in myself more. ventured more into my photography with Xavier (Olympus XA), learnt how to Python (i’m very happy very very happy that i achieved this, can’t wait to learn more about it!), learnt how to skateboard (& fell & so kinda stopped skating but gonna start again hahaha), got back my rollerblades, went for yoga classes, went for ZUMBA classes with mom – yes i did, transform my energy into frantic aerobics moves and learn a dancestep or two hehe. and then came my beloved grandma. i still miss her very much and it comes and goes. but through it, while i am still very sad and i still wish for her for my birthday this year; she’s in a better place and i’ll be reunited with her one day again. soo.. i shouldn’t be sad about it anymore
now… what do i expect from 2019?
- Growing with God
- reduce my footprint & invest in myself – food, clothes, makeup
- 3 pullups by the end of 2019; 2 by august
- gain weight thru muscle mass if possible?? if not just maintain, don’t be guilty about it – lol was having reverse eating disorder at the end of 2018.
- excel at my job; hit the KPI i set for myself and more.
- be tidier. stop hoarding things talia!! what do i do if everything sparks joy in me!?
again, i’ll add more when i remember.
oh yes, and i’ll try to follow this as much as possible. i mean i thrift and buy secondhand but i’m also a consumer of firsthand items e.g. today i bought some pants for my corporate life. but the thing was, i needed those pants cos i didn’t have any that fit the corporate life neither could i fit comfortably into my mom/sis pants. yeah but i have a list of office wear things to have and all i was missing was some comfy corporate pants which i purchased from uniqlo earlier today after my mum’s appointment. nonetheless, so far so good.. with chinese new year coming up, i borrowed my aunt’s cheongsam cos i was felling a little festive this year (piggies unite!) and for my birthday, i guess i’ll be a little more creative with what i already have which may or may not have been worn yet.
it’s been a lovely writing session – not really actually, my parents are being walking up and down. i feel, self-conscious. hahaha
till next time,