it’s been 3 days
it’s been 6 days
why does it feel like an eternity has passed when it has only been 16 days since i got back? maybe all the late nights and overthinking has messed with my body for good.
khnom nuk neak. whenever you ask me this, you’ll say that i have no idea what you’re talking about. you’ll say that you say it too much and that you feel it more than i do. but you’re not the only one in this.
i think a part of me wants this to
this whole time, my interpretation of physical and human geography was clear, to myself. but when i repeat my preference of the physical to others, they assume that it has nothing, completely nothing to do with humans. that’s wrong.
in fact, the geography that i’ve grown to love even more ties in with humans. yes, i love the science of nature but i love its interaction with humans as well. so i guess, the physical i’m referring to is the science and its ecosystem. a biogeographic sphere.
and when i say ‘human geography’, what i actually meant are topics such as population, globalization, transportation, gender … the list goes on. then again, i love reading news on world politics and culture.
that’s me, i guess. I probably can’t undo all the knots i’ve created. here’s this entry to make it clear once and for all to myself and to all who’re reading.
The more i talk about it, the more unreal it seems, the more detached I feel, the more impractical it becomes. Yet, the message vibration notifications i’m receiving reminds me that it is real and if i truly am sincere and honest with my feelings about this, i’d give my best shot.
But, i’m still stuck in between deluding and accepting.
Another 3 more days on the island.
The first month went by excruciatingly slow and once i started learning how to dive and things started between N. and I, each week has been flying by. The weekends pass the fastest. I love that weekend when it was storming and we both slept in.
Today, Mao cooked eggie bread with condensed milk for breakfast. She remembered! I’m so touched by this simple gesture. (:
Never truly undertstiod the term sleazy until this night haha
you know you’ve been pretty deprived when what you saw 2 weekends ago suddenly looks and feels a whole lot brighter and better. lel. forreals, captain chimp’s is so friggin clean and the road is so easy to walk on (esp since i’m injured). omg can’t wait for a good bed and aircon!!!